Last week, I finally told my youngest son what is going on. I have to say that it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. I will never forget the look on his face when I said, “Mommy and Daddy have decided not to stay married to each other.” His head bowed…he looked down…a frown came on his face…and tears began to well up in his eyes.
And then I told him why…I’m gay. How do you explain that to a 9 year old? And how do you help him to understand that even though the family is going to change, that we will always be family. And how do you help him to understand that none of it his fault? And how do you help to heal the pain that he is feeling when he hears news that hurts so deeply?
I cried. It hurt me to see him hurt. I hugged him and told him that I love him and that I will always be his dad no matter what.
And it killed me.
It was seriously one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.