I have to tell you, I have really found my niche. It feels really good and it is very energizing! I am excited to see where this all leads. For me, being a pastor of an evangelical church that is open and affirming is the niche I really believe I was created for!
Several years ago, I felt “called” to reach out to the gay community and to minister in the gay community. But because of where my life was at that time, as well as my belief at that time that homosexuality was a sin, I never acted on that call. I knew it was something God had put on my heart but I didn’t know how to step out and do it. Now…I am doing it.
My new church is still small. Because I have not officially come out yet, I can’t really do any advertising other than word of mouth. But our church is growing, slowly but surely. And it feels so right and so natural to be a pastor to the people God has brought. I get to be my 100% authentic self and don’t have to hide or put on a mask. I get to minister out of what God has done in my life and who He has created me to be. I am finding that it is SO NATURAL to love the people God has brought to this church! We have nothing to hide from each other so there is a freedom to be ourselves and to love each other just for who we are. I appreciate them and they appreciate me. We support each other. We laugh and have fun. And most importantly, we pursue God together. No one is telling me how to do my job because I don’t get a paycheck (yet) from the church. So I can just do my thing…honestly and authentically…out of the love that God has poured into my heart for these people.
Regardless of anything else going on in my life right now, I love my new church…and I love that I have found my niche!