It has been kind of a crazy week! First, she knew. Then she asked. And now we are discussing. Crazy!
I feel like my stomach has been in knots all week. This has been stressful, to say the least! But really, the stress has been about a lot of unknowns and just anxiety over what the future holds.
I mentioned before that my wife emailed me and asked. Well, the emailing has continued. In order to keep things sane around the house, to make sure the kids are not privy to anything, and to handle a difficult situation in bite-sized chunks, we have continued to email each other back and forth. That has actually been a good way to handle things so far…it makes it easy to say things without a big meltdown. I told my wife that it was ok to ask me questions right now and that I would answer what I could via email and save the rest for our counseling session together. So in her last email, she presented me with a list of questions she had for me. This weekend I will respond…and the web will get deeper. Slowly but surely, she will be “getting the picture”. By the time we have the counseling session, all will be out on the table.
And that is the good news…she has agreed to go to my next counseling session. I have a call in to the counselor and am waiting to get a call back to see when we can get it scheduled. I’m sure it will be in the next week or two.
In the meantime, I am trying to get in touch with another denomination. I don’t know what the future holds for my ministry but I need to begin to take some steps to start some conversations…just in case.
Pray for my weekend. We will be together all weekend without our jobs to distract us. It will be interesting to see if any discussions happen. I’ll keep you all updated!