The last few times that I have written posts, I have expressed fears, frustrations, and worry. While all of those things are natural with what I am going through, I realize that this is no way to live or to get through this issue in my life. I have been trying to “figure out” everything, rather than let God be my guide. Thankfully, both a friend and my counselor have spoken into my life in the past week and a half to help me realize that I need to live more from my center.
I know that at the core of my being, God is there. He has created me to be the person I am and He desires that I live in the confidence of who He has made me to be. So for me, I realize that I need to get away from the dualistic thinking that I was embracing before. I don’t need to fit this group or that group. I don’t need to figure out in advance if I am supposed to stay in a straight relationship or move into a gay one. Everything isn’t black and white…it’s not either/or. I just need to live my life and be true to who I am at the core of my being. As I do that and live honestly from the center of who God has created me to be, everything else will fall into place. I don’t need to get anxious. I don’t need to have all of the answers. I just need to be. God will work out the rest. Ultimately, I am a child of God and my identity is in Christ. Everything else flows out of that.
So I’m taking a deep breath. I’m not going to over-think everything. I am going to be true to myself and learn to live from the center.
Thanks to James and my counselor for speaking truth into my life.